Here comes the sun

    I love new beginnings. There’s something about them that’s clean, fresh, sunny. Like the early morning sunlight of a new day. The dew is fresh on the grass, the earth smells clean and damp, the world is reborn once again. It’s an amazing feeling.   I love new years precisely for this reason….

25/12/2008

Christmas is here. I just wish I wasn’t finding it so hard to concentrate. So many things are crowding my mind when all I want is to forget them all and concentrate on my family, who I have been pushing aside for too long because of my own problems. Lately I have been feeling myself…

Christmas flies

  Christmas flies. Delightful and intensely annoying at the same time. They buzz in around October and remind you that the year is drawing to an end and by the time the end of the year actually rolls around you’re thoroughly sick of them. If they weren’t around, though, you’d notice immediately. They seem to…

Blurred clarity

    She’s restless. Shifting in her seat at work, she watches enviously as other early risers walk into work early and settle at their desks, animated and refreshed after the three day holiday and a good night’s sleep. She hasn’t slept well. Despite not having woken up even once since she drifted off the…

Don’t Look Back

  “That song I told you about…” x   Don’t Look Back – Telepopmusik   Sit still, and close your eyes What’s behind the other door No more silence, don’t kill this thing we got called love Just searching for the perfect drug When Love comes calling Don’t look back When love comes calling Don’t…

Rain fell down…

  Got caught in the rain today. Well, not caught, really. I just walked right into it. Knowing it was raining, knowing I didn’t have an umbrella. But I wanted to get home so I walked out, mentally preparing myself for what I’d see when I looked in the mirror once I got home. Smudged…

The Fight

Lights off.   She closes her eyes, savouring the inky blackness, feeling it wash over her skin. Cool. Slinky. Soft.   She doesn’t recall where the light switch is, but she doesn’t care… She can’t see anything but the black and it’s a total mind fuck. Standing still, she could be in a tiny box,…

Darling

  I’ve finally run out of things to say to you. Run out of ways to explain how much it hurt when you left.   How bright the spark of hope was when you asked me back only to push me away again. How the brightness of each spark dimmed every time it happened. And…

That old feeling…

  It’s happening… And yet… Could it?   She giggles. Bites her lip and smiles at herself in the mirror. Checks her hair. Again.   Such a weird mix of feelings. Suddenly strange. Suddenly shy. Suddenly good. Suddenly self conscious. Suddenly happy. Suddenly unsure. Suddenly even a little scared.   The drive is long, the…

Unforgiven

You carry your blues behind your eyes Don’t flatter yourself, I will survive.   So carry your blues, your own denial Your feathers are gone, you’ll never fly…    

Carols, friends and moving on

   I’m having fun again. Haha. Finally! The thrill of it made me want to giggle madly as I walked to work today, listening to Christmas carols for the first time for the year. I avoid local radio in any case, but I make an even more pronounced effort during November and December because hearing…