Feet

For Sumani Sumani in Anuradhapura, Sept 2010 – just 3 months before her passing.   A house – not empty But left cold by your absence Chills me more than the Weather outside. . I step inside, And feet already cold from the outdoors Get colder still Despite safe haven from the wind. I take…

Love. Lost.

Sadness inspires – I find the connotations of this rather grim, but I still can’t deny the truth of it. Why doesn’t happiness have the same effect, I wonder? Some of man’s best work was created in fits of rage, anxiety, insecurity and extreme pain. A sad story is always a good story. I don’t…

The Fight

Lights off.   She closes her eyes, savouring the inky blackness, feeling it wash over her skin. Cool. Slinky. Soft.   She doesn’t recall where the light switch is, but she doesn’t care… She can’t see anything but the black and it’s a total mind fuck. Standing still, she could be in a tiny box,…

Darling

  I’ve finally run out of things to say to you. Run out of ways to explain how much it hurt when you left.   How bright the spark of hope was when you asked me back only to push me away again. How the brightness of each spark dimmed every time it happened. And…

The awakening

   I woke up this morning and wished I hadn’t.   Memories of the night before immediately sucker punched me in the stomach and I was fighting to breathe for a few minutes, clutching my pillow, squeezing my eyes shut, hoping that by some miracle that I could disappear. I looked at my phone. He…

Bang, bang…My baby shot me down

My heart broke again last night.   But I think it was for the last time. Finally. For the last time.     Strong inadvertently told me that he was in love with someone else. He proclaimed it to the world and for the first time, I couldn’t ignore it any longer.     That…

What a difference a day made.

  Funny how it can all change from one moment to the next.   I still can’t believe how happy I was… then. There’s a line now. A big fat line that divides everything into ‘before’ and ‘after’, ‘then’ and ‘now’. A line that spells disaster and taunts you with its blurriness. You wonder if…